i wrote this days ago. i dont really remember why i wrote it. i guess i was bored. but haha! it goes out to those who once said hi to me =] actually especially to people whom i used to hang out with. yeah. miss you all.
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as the time passes, how many of us remember about all these?
how we met each other and started talking
how we started hanging out together
how we learnt to forgive each other
how we had fun and joys together
how we teased and made fun of each other
how we played like kids childishly
how we ended up in a fight and patch up
how we laughed at each other for being stupid
how we joked and bitched around
how we shopped and complained about being tired
how we clinged on the phone all night long even without talking

how many of us will forgot?
the days we laughed like people from woodbridge
the days we screamed siaoly
the days we cried together just because we had problems
the days we sighed when we cant go out
the days we went out together when i skipped dance
the days we tried out stuffs for the first time
the days we chitchat about people who left us
the days we played sports together even though we are lousy
the days we went out late just to celebrate
the days we got scolded for being bad kids

i wont forget, the times you all brought me laughters.
you guys taught me alot.
to grow stronger, to grow tougher.
to be a person i want to be.
to say out everything i want to.
to handle stress and pressure.
to be proud of myself.

i love you guys.mentioning people who once entered my life.
no matter who, whether you forgot me
or i forgot you,you left a footstep in my heart.

message above is for the all those you-know-whos.
=] take care.
i dont know whether we'll still be hanging out,but we'll forever be friends.

loads of love,szeling<3

she's so pretty. even when she frowns. even when she is sad. she is still so beautiful. she looks at me and joked with me. even when she plays so crazily, she still looks so nice. even when she laughs like mad, she still look so gorgeous. even when she goes around bullying people, she is still the limelight of everyone.

i'm not her. but i want to be.
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havent been blogging cause i dont know. lazy ? guess so. haha! i am getting sick of blogging. but i know you guys love my blog larh! perhaps i used to say everything in details. and now i am so lazy and tired to even blog! so hahaha! might as well forget i have this blog. actually i also missed to bloggings that i used to post. but then, i got no time. and somemore my days are spent dancing and nothing much interesting except how fierce i got during dance, how pissed off i am, and how much i enjoy dancing with my dance besties. well, there are fun things going on and there are also things i need to sacrifice. like times with my dear and darls, my gang and family things. but i know they'll understand me. yeah. even if they dont, there's nothign i can do. so they must! hahahha! going to go for dance soon.

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i really want to dance so nicely. but i can never succeed. no matter how hard i try, there's nothing i can do. even i did my best, it isnt the best for their standard. so why should i continue to work so hard when no one even sees my effort. they just assume we are fooling around and not doing our best. but in fact we tried our best. it just that we didnt meet their target. but what if we can no longer go higher. i dont know.
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dear i'm sorry i cant be there for you. i cant go out with you. i hope you understand. and that goes to everyone whom i had been neglecting.

i cant be good enough i know. well, will try to improve though.

take care everyone =] wo hui xiang ni men de <3

i always thought i could enjoy dance. because i used to dance with joy and everything can be thrown behind when i'm dancing. but right now. i am getting so much stress. with the coming syf. the peer pressure. and self esteem stuff. yeah. i really cant handle the pressure and stress. i need a rest. i need some space. i need you =(

i am beginning to worry. is dance going to be my life? can i achieve. or should i give up. i dont think i got the talent. maybe i shall be a commoner and work commonly and give up. maybe i should strive hard and be a professional. i have no idea.

ke neng i need some time to think over.

this few days keep quarreling with people. i dont know why. my attitude sucks and aiyah! i hate peer pressure. damn damn damn it ! kill me man !

lately i was so tired. so didnt blog. sad thing is i am still very tired.

saturday-
woke up at 11plus i think. then i went to 883 to buy breakfast and rented 2 more dvds. haha! so happy xD then went home watched tv, eat breakfast and used computer. until 1.30pm =x was late for dance. rushed all the way there. then changed and stuffs. there's this new teacher teaching us a new dance. it is so retro type! just too funny =x then had some difficulties knowing what he wants. well, i had to dance one part with the da jiejie men so stressed ._. after dance, rushed down to aunt house. cause today my sister's birthday and my aunt's friend de birthday also! they cooked the food like buffet. keep refilling until everyone so full. well, i reached there and there was so much food. so i kindly eat a huge plate of meehoon and noodles. and finished them all =D then i watched tv all the way until 1am. then we realised not enough place to sleep. so i called my dad to come fetch us home. then he came, eat abit then fetch me my sister and her boyfriend back. went home i just fell dead on my bed. i was so tired !

sunday-
woke up at around 9am. packed and stuffs. then went to meet them at 10.30am. yeah. then we went to eat mac. huiling wanted big breakfast. i drank coffee. then got myself a bread. cause i was sick. then me huiling, jiarong, wentong, andy, elaine went to the place. yeah i thought i was so sure that it was lakeside. and i was wrong larh! ahhaha. got suan and stuffs. so we uturn back to chinese garden. had fun =] then went to boonlay. we ate san zhong liang jian. lols! nicenice xD then we went to the fishing prawn place by cab. yeah. then we fished and stuff. then they left. we ate the prawns and my dad fetched us home. yeah i am lazy to blog. for details go huiling blog.

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all i want is you =(

well, i went out at around 10am. dear was there =] we went to school together but he cannot go in. so i went in. ben lai the board at canteen de. then i think too noisy. so mdm ho shifted it to the classroom block. it was so hot larh! then i need to check for alot of people. kelian =x anyways, i got in triple science =] great larh but i am afraid i cant handle. my attitude is san fen zhong re du de. confirm wont study hard de. hais. then after that went out school. then dear went with his friends. well, at the bus stop got me huiling andy elaine benson and jiarong. then the 3 people from 3/8 was discussing whether to appeal and they did. although it seemed more like me and benson appealing cause we gave them suggestions on how to write the reasons =D then we went to eat at causeway foodcourt =] i ate half jiu give jiarong cause not hungry but he damn hungry. well, then we were deciding where to go. wanted to go play basketball de but borrow bu dao ball. so we decided to go occ play bowling. benson didnt come with us. so we cabbed there. the taxi driver damn funny ! he keep singing. then say he very good at it and that people are paying for him to sing ._. anyways, we reached there and played 2 rounds. yeah i am lousy xP perhaps that time go with enxin is beginner's luck! ahhahas~ had hotdog bun there =] then we went to northpoint walk walk. then went to eat the nice nice laksa at 925. yeahh. i ate half only. then we went back to take mrt. then me and elaine went to walk walk at toapayoh cause we were early. then we went for dance. yeah peisi helped us open the door at 6pm =] then we danced until 9pm. then crapped a little jiu rushed home cause my stupid brother forgot to bring his keys out when he went to buy his dinner. then i on the train ask him to go down again and buy for me he say lazy. then i say fan zhen you got nothing to do. he say later the people think i siao go buy 2 time. i was like why cannot buy two time ! you then siao =x hahahs. anyways, so i rushed home for him. and i realised i forgot to bring the keys too. well, at least i got ways to get in. and yeah ! we managed to get in. so he kindly shared half of his chickenchoprice with me cause he had a fish burger outside the house. then i bathed and stuffs. dont know what to do. i am so bored =( well, tomorrow is my sister birthday and i didnt get anything for her. okay i am not a good sister. i've got no money for myself how to buy for her =x hahaha!

aiyohs i miss my dear larh! =( work so hard for what ! bu jian de you study so hard =xx haahha!

lalalla~ shall go sleep soon. my sore throat aint healing =(

yesterday i couldnt sleep. think maybe is cause afternoon slept too much. so i watched the dvds i rented. i watched THE PERFECT MAN first. it was about this girl's mum whose always moving to another place when she had her heart broken. she was always desperate to get into a relationship. then she fall for this girl called lenny who was totally not suitable for her! then the girl planned to make up a perfect guy for her. so she left orchids outside the house and wrote a note; she wrote poetries to her through mails, then used emails to talk to her. actually i think the girl is good, i mean, she's doing so much for her mum. aiyah! the story damn nice. it was so touching too. then i watched CONFESSIONS OF A TEENAGE DRAMA QUEEN. it was nice larh. quite funny too. well, i need the subtitles on cause they talked too fast xD ahaha!

then i slept at 6am. and i woke up at 9.30am. i was so tired =x
update later <3

well, as i thought i was recovering from my fever, it flew up to 38.9degrees again at night. now i am really recovering =] but i cant sleep. maybe just now sleep too much le. and right now i am so bored cause no one's online and i've got nothing to do.

things are running through my mind. i dont want to face things anymore. i cant be the person i used to be. i am getting more and more different. things will change gradually. and friends around wont be the same anymore. i am afraid to face the world without you guys. but how long can our friendship remains? how long will we still be together? and how long can we still hang out together. what if one day one of us had an accident, and the memories of the past are gone? will we still be appreciating each other? or we dont belong in each other's world.

i am afraid =( i am scared.

today woke up dont know what time. then very cold. then i went to my brother's room and slept there and wrapped myself like a mummy =x then my sister woke up, and i asked her where's the panadol. then she cannot find so she went to buy and got us brunch. she bought porridge for me. but i am not supposed to eat riceliked stuffs. but i still eat larh. then had panadol then slept. then woke up in the afternoon. my sister and brother doing housework. so i went to fold the clothes. hen guai hor. hahas! then went to rent dvds and 'wash' the films ahhas! and bought ingredients for my sister to cook. then went home. tou hen tong. so i went to sleep again. then woke up at around 5pm. fever so high. temperature was 38.9degrees. lihai hor? then i went to my parents' room and cover myself up until i finally fall asleep. my temperature dropped cause i perspired so much. then ate the beehoon that my sister cooked. then tada~ here i am.

kelian de wo. ben lai xiang qu haibian de. then sheng bing. now head still pain =( sian.

i miss my dear! =(

just now watched the dvd- a cinderella story. so touching! i cried siahh. at the part where the step sisters read her emails out. she very kelian! but ending very nice =D happy for her! ahahahas! after watching rushed to meet enxin. bought teenage and i-weekly! then we took cab to occ =] then changed and went to swim. swim and play and crapped. then went to the other side where it got the slide! hahas! very funny. we wanted to slide down but stucked. then must use hand to push down ._. then we went to play bowling! so fun man! and i first time playing still win enxin! she second time playing. ahhahas! funfun<3 addicted to bowling and swimming =x i want go jurong de swimming pool and marina de bowling =x ahhash! anyways, after that went to the golf there eat alot of things! i drank milo, we shared fries, crispy chicken and fish finger and fruit punch =D then we took the shutter bus to yishun mrt. then i rushed off for my dance. was so so so late! then reached toapayoh i realised i left my rubberband in the shower room xP hahas! then i went to buy lorh. then went for dance. i was the last to reach. xDD then we watched the vcd i bought for teacher from shanghai. watched quite long. then we danced. change alot of moves. i want to improve so badly! i want my yao to be better but now very pain already. jialat larh! hais! yao jiayou! =D everyone must jiayou <3 after that went to buy grass jelly soya bean. then we went to eat. i pei them =D laoshi very cute larh! keep saying RAIN very shuai ._. lols then my dad came to fetch me with my mum. then we went to eat. i ate mee soto. =DD then went home and bathe. heehees!

i miss my deardear!

boo. went to school early at around 11am when i just woke up xD ahha! then teacher gave me my PFT record. ARGH! jiu cai wo de 2.4run then can get gold le !! hahhaas! but my run damn lousy! get 1 point only xP hao guo kaiyuan =x oops! ahhaash! anyways, then got booklist also. then i went to 883 to collect my winter wear which was so dirtied that my mum sent for dry cleaning =x hahas! then i went to return the vcd and rented another dvd =DD then i went to 834 buy coffee and bao! my brunch =] then went home. i just now counted the textbooks and stuffs money. it's going to cost me 2oo over bucks. sad sad. take triple science then must pay more ? hahahas! feel so bad for spending my parents money. so i must study hard hard then next time buy big big house let them sleep in =D i must buy nice nice bed, sofa, and computer for them ! and two majong table with two sets of majong. one for them, one for me and my friends =x hahahs! and must have 2 shelves! one for my comic and one for my soft toys xD then i must buy big big car although i dont feel like learning how to drive. nevermind i will get my dear to drive =x ahhas! let's continue to dream onnnnnn~

shall go watch cinderalla story =DD just rented it. later going occ SWIMMMMMMMM~

i want to blog blog blog =x ahhaha! back to memememe =D cheerful ke ai de szeling ! no wonder i like orange. so brilliant bright and HAPPY!
lalalalas~ yesterday do the skin until 3am then sleep. today woke up at around 10.30am. heehees! watched RUMOR HAS IT. rented from 883. quite nice lerh! that time at elaine house dont know why kan bu xia qu. no atmosphere barh. ahahas! then went out at around12noon. dear was outside =] then walked to causeway. went to buy tickets for grudge2 =D then went to mac and eat brunch. ate nuggets and drank coke. wahhahhas. forced dear to eat fries xD FRIES NOT NICE LARH! i dont like =x ahhahas! then walked around until 1plus. went up to sit sit at banquet and waited. then watched the movie. not scary lerh. xiaomei you very lousy lerh! such movie also scared. lousy siah. no like laoda so brave! no wonder you xiaomei =x ahahhahs! then after movie dont know want go where. kelian de dear bei wo la qu walk one round xP ahhaa! then went to mos burger. drank coffee. dear very cute lorh. ming ming shi wo yao shui jiao ! then in the end he sleeping. then i played quadrapop =DD funfunfun! hahahhas! then went to meet simin to go dance together. then i played with her phone. the dont know what rabbit game! hahaas! funfunfun xP i very sad larh! my phone no game =( i want find my card reader then can insert games inside. lalallas~ then we reached toapayoh go buy drinks then went for dance. slacked at first because everyone else was late. then taught simin abit jiu lazy so asked patricia help me teach. good job done =] ahahhas! then they all came lorh. then we dance abit. practice more and more. then danced once more jiu released le cause teacher not there. it was only 7.40pm! then changed and talked awhile jiu zou le. waited for my dad until 8.10pm! then he brought me go eat. so nice the food but i couldnt finish. ahhas! then he went ntuc buy things. then went to fetch my mama home. had red bean ice cream xD slept in the car cause very tired =x then went home bathed jiu lai blog le =DD

i dont understand. why is everybody trying to slim down yet i am so lazy. wo yi jin fang qi le xD so dont bother asking me jianfei. just going to watch my diet and exercise. shall not skip meals and overexercise. yeah! shall promise myself to maintain this weight as long as possible =xx ahhahas!

anyways, i guess no one really cares about me anymore chu le dear. so i shall not get sad if anyone forgets me, or anything. bu xiang guan le. fan zhen wo hai guo de hao hao de. my jealousy must also control. shall not get jealous over little things. wo yao jiayou! although right now there's so much thing that once i see i get jealous. must kong zhi! and also my mind ahh. bu ke yi zai hu si luan xiang le! if not wo de xin you yao shou shang le !

hao larh! chi bao jiu shui . shui bao jiu chi ! jiu bu yong xiang na me duo le =D wan an!

decided to create a new blog after the previos one died. have fun reading xP

lalalalas i love my dear=]

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