Monday, January 08, 2007
at times you look around yourself. you found yourself in this lost world. in this world you see yourself all alone. deep inside you felt so cold and sad. all you ever wish was a cup of hot tea, or a bowl of warm soup. you wish and wish to the stars. hoping you'll get once you turn around. and that it will be a brand new world for you to live with hopes and happiness. however, you got surprised when you turned around. you didnt get your tea nor soup. your wishes didnt came true. all you had was a friend of your own. the friend led you into another world. not a world of hope and happiness. yet is a world you never knew you would came to. a world where you can be yourself. a world that you are not afraid for people to know who you are. so true so real. that's where i want to be.
yet in this cruel world. whatever you wish for will never come true. just like people wishing for fairness and harmony. yet we didnt have it. so what if the stars were still there. even if you make a wish when you see a shooting star. the wish will never come true.
i cant live in that world i longed to be. therefore i chose to hide from everything. running cant solve the problem yet it can keep the salt away from the wounds. even if i dont have any friends. i know i can run away from everything. even if everyone talks behind my back. i know i can wear a mask and just smile.
even if no one cared. i can be the one caring for myself. even if no one understood. i can be the one understanding myself. even if no one loved. i can still be the one loving myself. even if everyone left me. i can be there for myself. even if i am gone. i still want to make myself the best.
that's why nothing is going to make me sad. all i need to do is smile and everything would be fine. because i believe i dont need the tears to make myself stronger. i dont need it anymore.
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dont know what i wanted to say. just typed along. maybe all i wanted to say is. i had enough of some people. and guess i should stay away. yeah.
thanks huiling darling for always being there for me yeahh. but i know i need to learn to be independent. yin wei ni bu ke yi yong yuan bang wo ah. if not i will be like so selfish. so i will get stronger. darling thanks =]
and yeahh my gladys also! although i dont know you well and you always got strange stuffs to tell me. well, i just feel happy and crazy being with you. and i miss you. see you on saturday darling!
hmm, maybe some friends arent really who they are. i might not be who i am either.
23days =]
yet in this cruel world. whatever you wish for will never come true. just like people wishing for fairness and harmony. yet we didnt have it. so what if the stars were still there. even if you make a wish when you see a shooting star. the wish will never come true.
i cant live in that world i longed to be. therefore i chose to hide from everything. running cant solve the problem yet it can keep the salt away from the wounds. even if i dont have any friends. i know i can run away from everything. even if everyone talks behind my back. i know i can wear a mask and just smile.
even if no one cared. i can be the one caring for myself. even if no one understood. i can be the one understanding myself. even if no one loved. i can still be the one loving myself. even if everyone left me. i can be there for myself. even if i am gone. i still want to make myself the best.
that's why nothing is going to make me sad. all i need to do is smile and everything would be fine. because i believe i dont need the tears to make myself stronger. i dont need it anymore.
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dont know what i wanted to say. just typed along. maybe all i wanted to say is. i had enough of some people. and guess i should stay away. yeah.
thanks huiling darling for always being there for me yeahh. but i know i need to learn to be independent. yin wei ni bu ke yi yong yuan bang wo ah. if not i will be like so selfish. so i will get stronger. darling thanks =]
and yeahh my gladys also! although i dont know you well and you always got strange stuffs to tell me. well, i just feel happy and crazy being with you. and i miss you. see you on saturday darling!
hmm, maybe some friends arent really who they are. i might not be who i am either.
23days =]
what we could have been, 8:47 pm.
