Saturday, April 05, 2008
sometimes i wish i was never alive. maybe then my parents wont have to be so xinku. they wont have to work so much just for money. to pay for my dance fees, my educations, my food, my transportation, my clothes and everything.
maybe if i wasnt alive, they will just need to work awhile, and spend the rest of their days with my sis&bro. maybe this family will be closer? maybe my bro wont be so addicted to computer.
maybe my sis wont have to work& study at the same time.
maybe my mum can be a happy housewife.
maybe my dad can work lesser.
maybe my bro can have my things that other kids enjoy.
maybe they'll live a bigger house, maybe they'll own a car, maybe they'll be happier.
aww i feel sad =(
tears cant stop flowing.
i feel extra, no matter where.
but mum&dad.
i'm thankful that i was born. you all let me feel the family warmth that not everyone can feel it. i was born in a nice family. though not rich, my parents are lovely& they care for their children. although they work till very late, and spend very little time with us, they try to make us happy through materials. we all know they want the best for us, that's why they work so hard.
i'm thankful that i have such a great sister. who buys things for me everytime and not asking me to return the money to her. she brings me everywhere she goes with her friends, although there's age gap. she takes very good care of me although i'm very naughty and rebellious. she never fails to make me smile although she's stressed up with her work. she's the best sister that everyone is envy of.
i'm thankful that i have a brother. although he's addicted to computer, and all that, he's willing to buy food for me, fetch me home when i go out late. although he maybe very rebellious& not attending school, he taught me alot of things. not that he teaches me, it's just that i learnt so much from seeing him. he's the motivation of me, that i dont want to end up like him. but no matter what, he a brother that no one wants to have, except me. cause he'll take care of me. i still remember the day when i was attacked, i can see him being worried about me. he may appear cold hearted but he still cares.
and i'm blessed with friends. when i needed someone to complain to, someone to gossip with, they are always there. especially grateful to those who tries to make me smile&laugh when i'm really down. their ways of making someone happier is special, yet it's really cheers me up.
and lastly, i'm happy to find someone whom i love& love me back. he's always there for me. although i'm busy with all my stuffs, never able to meet up with him, he's willing to wait. our lives are so packed and all that, but i know our love never fades.
cherish everyone =)
maybe if i wasnt alive, they will just need to work awhile, and spend the rest of their days with my sis&bro. maybe this family will be closer? maybe my bro wont be so addicted to computer.
maybe my sis wont have to work& study at the same time.
maybe my mum can be a happy housewife.
maybe my dad can work lesser.
maybe my bro can have my things that other kids enjoy.
maybe they'll live a bigger house, maybe they'll own a car, maybe they'll be happier.
aww i feel sad =(
tears cant stop flowing.
i feel extra, no matter where.
but mum&dad.
i'm thankful that i was born. you all let me feel the family warmth that not everyone can feel it. i was born in a nice family. though not rich, my parents are lovely& they care for their children. although they work till very late, and spend very little time with us, they try to make us happy through materials. we all know they want the best for us, that's why they work so hard.
i'm thankful that i have such a great sister. who buys things for me everytime and not asking me to return the money to her. she brings me everywhere she goes with her friends, although there's age gap. she takes very good care of me although i'm very naughty and rebellious. she never fails to make me smile although she's stressed up with her work. she's the best sister that everyone is envy of.
i'm thankful that i have a brother. although he's addicted to computer, and all that, he's willing to buy food for me, fetch me home when i go out late. although he maybe very rebellious& not attending school, he taught me alot of things. not that he teaches me, it's just that i learnt so much from seeing him. he's the motivation of me, that i dont want to end up like him. but no matter what, he a brother that no one wants to have, except me. cause he'll take care of me. i still remember the day when i was attacked, i can see him being worried about me. he may appear cold hearted but he still cares.
and i'm blessed with friends. when i needed someone to complain to, someone to gossip with, they are always there. especially grateful to those who tries to make me smile&laugh when i'm really down. their ways of making someone happier is special, yet it's really cheers me up.
and lastly, i'm happy to find someone whom i love& love me back. he's always there for me. although i'm busy with all my stuffs, never able to meet up with him, he's willing to wait. our lives are so packed and all that, but i know our love never fades.
cherish everyone =)
what we could have been, 1:10 pm.
